Small Stone – Day 9

Try to be alive: small stone day 9

“The most solid advice . . . for a writer is this, I think: Try to learn to breathe deeply, really to taste food when you eat, and when you sleep, really to sleep. Try as much as possible to be wholly alive, with all your might, and when you laugh, laugh like hell, and when you get angry, get good and angry. Try to be alive. You will be dead soon enough.”

~ William Saroyan

So, today I’m angry. Not really angry, more emotional. I feel a rainbow of emotions inside me. They run the gamut from anxious, depression, angry, sad, sorry, and helpless.  I can feel the anxiety running like electricity throughout my body.  The depression seems to be balled up in my stomach.  The angry is probably running my blood pressure up because I have a headache. The sad feels so heavy. The sorry makes me feel weepy. The helpless brings on the feeling of just wanting to lay down and die.

All in all, it has been a bad day.